Write it Down

Write it down, who cares who is reading it, write as if no one but yourself will ever read it... the one thing I learned and remembered from English 101. Some times I find myself getting angry over things that really in the end do not matter. I get angry at the world because I do not fit in, I look different, my comments in a social setting are strange and out of place, I get nervous and uncomfortable when no one is speaking in a group, and all these things make me angry. I want so badly to fit in a times that I say or do things that later I regret and say to myself I hope you never do that again, but time and time I find myself right back in the same spot. I get angry when I think about all the mistakes I have made, and get even more upset when I continue to make the mistakes that I vowed to never make again. I see people falling into the trends of society and not questioning whether it is right or wrong, but who am I to judge I myself have fallen into situations where I shrugged off questioning the intentions of my actions because deep down inside I know it was wrong but cannot admit it. I want to start questioning my actions, I want to make the right decisions even though at times they seem so hard and unsatisfactory. I want to try...

Dreams

Sometimes I feel as if you were a dream; I look at pictures of us and find myself in a daze thinking did that really happen. We went from being happy to nothing, nothing anymore. I have all these memories of us together that float around in my mind; I am afraid one day I will wake up and they will be gone, just as you were here one day and gone the next.